Olaf was already brain-dead when they got him to the ER. He didn't respond at all when the shoved the ventilator down his throat, a most uncomfortable experience if one is capable of experiencing or reacting to such things. He didn't respond. Olaf's on the ventilator til the family who can come to say good bye do. They're discussing organ donation, which is a good thing. Another friend of mine needs a liver, e.g.
I knew Paul first as "Olaf," a co-commentor on Atrios' blog. He was from and had returned to Baltimore when we first started our colloquys. Later he moved to Albuquerque, and we became fast friends. I always called him Olaf, though later, I added "Pablo," for the local color. He always called me "Woody." He met his "Lil Red," Michelle, at a gathering I arranged here in '06.
The "Olaf" to whom he referred by his 'nym' is cummings' "i sing of olaf, glad and big." I knew from his reference to the poem that we could be friends, and we were. He was nearly as avid an esotericist/trivialist as I, and was widely read, especially since he'd mostly eschewed formal schooling. I think he had a BA, but had a breadth of reading and understanding, interest and complexity of thought that far outreached that level of interest.
He loved to drink beer, and we did so many an afternoon, many, many bottles. We were talking Sunday night about his and Michelle's plans to visit Voodoo-fest in N'Awlins this fall. He wanted to visit the Abita Springs Brewery, in Covington.
He rode a Motoguzzi.
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i sing of Olaf glad and big
whose warmest heart recoiled at war:
a conscientious object-or
his wellbelov'd colonel(trig
westpointer most succinctly bred)
took erring Olaf soon in hand;
but--though an host of overjoyed
noncoms(first knocking on the head
him)do through icy waters roll
that helplessness which others stroke
with brushes recently employed
anent this muddy toiletbowl,
while kindred intellects evoke
allegiance per blunt instruments--
Olaf(being to all intents
a corpse and wanting any rag
upon what God unto him gave)
responds,without getting annoyed
"I will not kiss your fucking flag"
straightway the silver bird looked grave
(departing hurriedly to shave)
but--though all kinds of officers
(a yearning nation's blueeyed pride)
their passive prey did kick and curse
until for wear their clarion
voices and boots were much the worse,
and egged the firstclassprivates on
his rectum wickedly to tease
by means of skilfully applied
bayonets roasted hot with heat--
Olaf(upon what were once knees)
does almost ceaselessly repeat
"there is some shit I will not eat"
our president,being of which
assertions duly notified
threw the yellowsonofabitch
into a dungeon,where he died
Christ(of His mercy infinite)
i pray to see;and Olaf,too
preponderatingly because
unless statistics lie he was
more brave than me:more blond than you.
i sing of Olaf glad and big
whose warmest heart recoiled at war:
a conscientious object-or
his wellbelov'd colonel(trig
westpointer most succinctly bred)
took erring Olaf soon in hand;
but--though an host of overjoyed
noncoms(first knocking on the head
him)do through icy waters roll
that helplessness which others stroke
with brushes recently employed
anent this muddy toiletbowl,
while kindred intellects evoke
allegiance per blunt instruments--
Olaf(being to all intents
a corpse and wanting any rag
upon what God unto him gave)
responds,without getting annoyed
"I will not kiss your fucking flag"
straightway the silver bird looked grave
(departing hurriedly to shave)
but--though all kinds of officers
(a yearning nation's blueeyed pride)
their passive prey did kick and curse
until for wear their clarion
voices and boots were much the worse,
and egged the firstclassprivates on
his rectum wickedly to tease
by means of skilfully applied
bayonets roasted hot with heat--
Olaf(upon what were once knees)
does almost ceaselessly repeat
"there is some shit I will not eat"
our president,being of which
assertions duly notified
threw the yellowsonofabitch
into a dungeon,where he died
Christ(of His mercy infinite)
i pray to see;and Olaf,too
preponderatingly because
unless statistics lie he was
more brave than me:more blond than you.
Our Olaf was a very special friend and pal, and I shall miss him very greatly.
He was a friend of mine...
Vaya con Dios, amigo!
Addendum: There is now scheduled to be a "visitation" (without the body), with local friends and family at:
The Riverside Mortuary, 225 San Mateo NE (near I-
Tomorrow (Thursday) between 6 and 8 pm.
Michelle also authorized me to publish her snail mail in case anyone wants to send a more concrete condolence than bytes and bits. She hasn't been home from the hospital in a couple of days, so messages sent there will probably go unanswered for a time. Red asked me to thank any and all of you who have sent her messages of condolence. She said she'd reply when she can.
Ms Michelle Miller
14124 Copper Ave Ne # 10
Abq, NM 87123
Paul bravely agreed in life to share his organs; they are harvesting his organs today.